A Desire to Ask

Whenever you make any relationship you discover something about yourself. I have learned that there are some people who can never get love. Who can never experience the so called affection in their life….. People say that when you have love in your life then you tend to become happy. They say that love relation is the most wondrous relationship one makes in their entire life. They say that the two person who are in love with each other desires to spend days and night with each other.
If all this is true then, why I am so unhappy. The air around me has become even sadder than before, cutting my nerves all day long. I don't know much about the feeling called ' love'. I wanted to know. I wanted to smile freely and truly. I wanted to say. I wanted to be just happy. I wanted to love. Love came. Is this is the same love, I heard of? Should I suppose to become happy? He says that he loves me. I too believed that he was the only person who has actually loved me....Who has actually cared for me and wanted me. But if then, why this state of relationship lacks affection…. He say every day that he loves me but still it doesn't make any difference. If the old saying that love brings happiness is true than why I haven't experienced this change in my life… Why I am still sad, still weepy, still alone......Why I am still subdued and undemanding...Why I still feel that there is no one who really loves me....Why tears won't stop....Why there's no one to whom I can Ask…